Nerve Week

Wow, getting close to hair chop time - 18 hours to be precise!

I was starting to get nervous about it but after last night and this morning I don't think I could get nervous again this week without having some sort of melt down :S

Last night was Gig Night II, a great evening of all sorts of bands and combinations of muscicians that is very chilled and very enjoyable evening. I played and sang 'Oever the Rainbow' the Eva Cassidy version. It's something I have done on the ship before (well, once) but noone at school has really heard me sing or play the guitar. In the song before I actually started to feel almost sick, and then whilst I was playing I couldn't stop my legs from shaking and even my hands were shaking as I was playing the guitar! My voice must have sounded OK though because I got a lot of really nice and encouraging comments from everyone, including the Y9's (an acheivement believe me!). It sort of encouraged me to do more - but only if I stop getting that nervous.

I contrast, assembly this morning was a breeze, probably spoke too quickly but the girls all listened and focussed whilst I was talking and lots of them have said they are coming to watch the great hair cutting.

I am feeling nervous about it. The only thing that I can see in my head is the geeky 14-year-old I was the last time I got it cut. And even though I now wear contacts, my face has changed a lot and I take much better care of my hair; I'm just worried that I'll end up looking exactly like that again!

But now I guess I get to be a geeky 28-year-old who is being supported by her friends, family, colleagues (inc one coming in on her day off!) and students in drastically changing her appearance for 2 very good causes. And if I think about that, I don't get nervous at all :)